When I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s Disease (PD) in 2000, I first thought of my three children and how my diagnosis would impact them. How would I tell them? Would I be able to help my daughter fix her hair and makeup? Would I be able to walk at their weddings?
At first, I chose not to share my diagnosis with my children, but I soon realized that I had to tell the older two – Kyle, 9, and Erik, 6. Their first question was, “Are you going to die?” I reassured them that this disease was not fatal, but told them that sometimes I might need help with small tasks. At the time, neither child asked many questions and seemed relieved to know that I was technically “okay.”
As time went on, I could see small but distinct ways that my announcement changed their behavior. When my son Kyle and I would go shopping, he would hold only my left hand. When I asked him why, his reply was that he was trying to stop the shaking. Then Erik decided suddenly that he would become a scientist, and create a bracelet and anklet that would stop people with Parkinson’s from shaking.
As I considered how to help my boys understand my disease, I got some wonderful suggestions from my movement disorders specialist. Upon his request, my husband and I brought the boys on a “special” doctor’s appointment. The doctor showed us pictures of the brain, explained the disease in simple terms and told us – and the boys – what it is like to live with PD.
While this visit was invaluable to me and my children, I continued to see signs of their struggle with my diagnosis. They were unsure how to answer children at school when they were asked why their mom shook so much, and I continually had to reassure them that I was not going to die. At one point we decided to seek outside counseling from a psychologist for one of the boys who was having a particularly difficult time adjusting. We found him to be helpful in teaching us how to cope.
For my daughter, Rachel, who was only two years old when I was first diagnosed, living with Parkinson’s has raised different issues. Rachel and I both had a hard time dealing with my inability to pull up her long, thick brown hair in a ponytail and have her look like the other girls her age. At first I asked the stylist to cut her hair short, but now, with adjustments and help from other family members, Rachel is learning to make her own ponytails. It’s just one of the many examples of simple things that Parkinson’s can take away from you, but which you can take back with a little teamwork.
This problem turned out to be minor compared to what was to come. Just this year, at age 7, Rachel hit me with a bombshell that I will never forget. I was sitting on my porch enjoying a cool day when she sat on my lap, placed her arms around my neck and asked, “Why do you have to have Parkinson’s?”
I tried to explain, but she kept saying, “I want you to be like you were before. It just isn’t fair because Kyle and Erik got to see you like you were before and I never have.”
It made me realize that my daughter had many questions going through her mind. We held each other, and she asked what the word “cure” meant. We talked about this, and then she asked the inevitable question: was Parkinson’s contagious? I told her that it was not, and that I would be around for a long time to answer any other questions that she may have. I also set up a phone call with my doctor so that he could have the same conversation with Rachel that he had with my boys.
Of course, my children continue to have questions. When Rachel was 7 years old, she asked me how old I was when I started shaking. I replied that I was 30, whereupon she asked if she too would start shaking when she turns 30. As I assured her that she would not, it reminded me that the questions about my Parkinson’s disease probably will not end. But at least I know I am here for my children, and plan to be for a long time.
My overall advice in dealing with this disease is to keep the faith and recognize the strength of your family. Expect that they will have questions, and be open to suggestions for dealing with these questions from your doctor, friends and other family. Remember that we are all in this together, and that only together will we win this war on Parkinson’s Disease.
Tips for Talking to Your Kids
- Explain your diagnosis in simple terms, including the symptoms and what behaviors to expect.
- If you have more than one child, you may want to initially talk with them one at a time.
- Be prepared to answer basic questions, such as if the diagnosis is fatal, if PD is contagious and if your child will get PD.
- Encourage your child to ask questions, and be prepared for some of them to be of a sensitive nature.
- Set up a visit for your child with your neurologist to talk about the disease and what to expect.
- Let your kids know that there will be some changes in daily living and that working as a team will help your family.
- Explain that people may stare at you because of the disease, and that it is usually because of curiosity and not rudeness.
- Talk about how your kids can explain the disease to their friends if they ask about it.
- If your child has a particularly difficult time dealing with your diagnosis, ask your child’s doctor to recommend a therapist who specializes in helping children whose parents live with a disease.
About the Author: Michelle Lane was diagnosed with Parkinson’s in June 2000 at the age of 32. She is a life-long resident of New Orleans and has been married for thirty-one years to her husband, Ronnie. They have three children, Kyle, Erik, and Rachel, and two grandsons, Blake and Chandler.
In February 2003, Michelle established the first young Parkinson’s support group in Louisiana with five members, which grew to over twenty-five members in one year. She also visits with and speaks to newly diagnosed patients daily on how to cope and live a productive life after the diagnosis. Her motto, which she shares with those who are newly diagnosed, is: “Don’t say I can’t do something, just say you can accomplish this task but with a little more time and patience.”
She also started Louisiana Walks for Parkinson’s benefitting The Parkinson’s Action Network (PAN). She has been the Louisiana State Director for PAN since 2002. In five years the walk has raised over $300,000, and in 2016 and 2017 the walk had over 700 participants. Since 2017 the walk benefits the Davis Phinney Foundation to help those with Parkinson’s live well today.
Michelle has been spotlighted in numerous local and national newspaper articles and has been interviewed by Medtronic, The American Parkinson’s Disease Association, Parkinson Disease Foundation, and Forbes Magazine. She has received numerous awards and represents many different organizations dedicated to supporting Parkinson’s research and advocacy.
