At 44 years old, I was ready to hit the reset button.
In March of 2025, my partner and I stepped away from our careers. The decision wasn’t reckless, it was intentional. I needed to focus on my mental health and build stability again. We wanted to design a life split between the United States and Colombia. Something vibrant. Something ours.
The summer before, in 2024, we had started a goal: to visit every Georgia State Park. It became our project — hiking trails, chasing waterfalls, documenting the journey.
I remember one hike in July 2024 when my urine looked unusually dark. It concerned me for a moment. But I convinced myself I was dehydrated. I drank water and moved on.
We completed our Georgia State Parks goal in April 2025. In May, we traveled to Colombia, excited to begin building our back-and-forth lifestyle between two countries.
I thought I was entering a new chapter.
But life had another one waiting.
The Warning Signs I Almost Missed
Looking back, the signs were there.
After strenuous hikes, my urine would sometimes appear darker, almost orange. I blamed dehydration. I didn’t consider blood.
Then in mid-August 2025, I saw it clearly. Bright red. Impossible to rationalize.
In September, a cystoscopy revealed two tumors inside my bladder.
On October 15, I underwent a TURBT (Transurethral Resection of Bladder Tumor). The pathology confirmed high-grade urothelial carcinoma, invading the lamina propria but not the muscle layer .
Aggressive, but still treatable.
Both of my grandfathers had battled bladder cancer. I knew my nearly 20-year history of smoking (a habit I had left behind) increased my risk. I just never imagined facing it at 44.
The Reality of Treatment
Travel plans were replaced with treatment schedules.
Recovery became structured and relentless:
Induction: Six intravesical Gemcitabine treatments.
Maintenance: Monthly treatments for a year.
Surveillance: Cystoscopy every three months, because bladder cancer has a high recurrence rate. Bladder cancer doesn’t end with surgery. It becomes something you monitor constantly.
The Weight of the “Quiet” Days
I am grateful for a recent clear three-month cystoscopy.
But treatment has a cost.
There are waves of nausea. Fatigue that feels heavier than ordinary tiredness. Intense bladder irritation after chemotherapy. And there is the mental fog — slowed thinking, difficulty concentrating — the very clarity I stepped away from work to restore.
Some months feel manageable. Others feel heavier.
That is the price of staying ahead of recurrence.
Finding My Voice Again
After my TURBT surgery, I made a decision.
I began documenting my journey on TikTok and social media.
At first, it was just to process what had happened. But telling my story became a form of therapy. It lifted a weight I didn’t know I was carrying. It turned isolation into connection.
What started as vulnerability became purpose.
A Message for the Next Generation
Bladder cancer is often dismissed as a “grandfather’s disease.”
It isn’t.
If your urine changes color after exertion, don’t assume dehydration.
If you see blood, act immediately.
If something feels wrong, don’t rationalize it away.
Whether you have a family history or a history of smoking, early action matters.
It is the reason I am here — still planning trips to Colombia, still finishing trails, still building the life I fought to reclaim.
